It was great to be involved in this workshop. I'd like to deny that I never see myself as a female DJ but simply as a DJ but it isn't true. I know part of my job is sell more than a good sound. Image is part of the package as well as making a statement about my culture. My main concern is to be authentic with my music, to be honest about, not only my musical heritage, but also to communicate this. Hopefully people respond to that and positively. Hopefully people get it. I think they do. Back to point about my image. I realise that I have to get dressed up, wear make-up and look attractive. Of course I don't want to go to work looking scruffy, but sometimes I feel (maybe I'm being paranoid) that I could sell some part of myself that I don't want to make available but I could if I chose to. I feel that there is a bottom line somewhere out there, the unspoken conversation on the currency of my sexuality which has always been a point for independent women especially in arts and culture. Of course clear lines are drawn by myself (silently), but nevertheless, I wonder if I would be as employable if I wore only jeans, no make-up and didn't sell any form of glamour along with the music. This bothers me only a little bit. I know pushing the sexuality boundaries does make some women feel more powerful. Sexualising every aspect of their work gives them the edge they feel they need, but I don't want to go down that road. I wish all women would realise they can get on in the world, gain independence without taking any aspects from the oldest profession in the world.
Actually, when I think about what I said, I feel I really understated the whole thing. Actually, sometimes men think they have to right to come up and touch me in a personal manner. This blurs the line of just DJing. They like the way you look and so therefore not only enquire as to your marital status but also impose themselves physically. I'm not an hostess looking for some after hours "trinkgeld". This is a fucking ridiculous state of affairs and women DJs either need to get rude or even violent or have to organise a bodyguard. Having to fight off drunk men so I can do my job just shouldn't be.
It was great to be involved in this workshop. I'd like to deny that I never see myself as a female DJ but simply as a DJ but it isn't true. I know part of my job is sell more than a good sound. Image is part of the package as well as making a statement about my culture. My main concern is to be authentic with my music, to be honest about, not only my musical heritage, but also to communicate this. Hopefully people respond to that and positively. Hopefully people get it. I think they do. Back to point about my image. I realise that I have to get dressed up, wear make-up and look attractive. Of course I don't want to go to work looking scruffy, but sometimes I feel (maybe I'm being paranoid) that I could sell some part of myself that I don't want to make available but I could if I chose to. I feel that there is a bottom line somewhere out there, the unspoken conversation on the currency of my sexuality which has always been a point for independent women especially in arts and culture. Of course clear lines are drawn by myself (silently), but nevertheless, I wonder if I would be as employable if I wore only jeans, no make-up and didn't sell any form of glamour along with the music. This bothers me only a little bit. I know pushing the sexuality boundaries does make some women feel more powerful. Sexualising every aspect of their work gives them the edge they feel they need, but I don't want to go down that road. I wish all women would realise they can get on in the world, gain independence without taking any aspects from the oldest profession in the world.
AntwortenLöschenActually, when I think about what I said, I feel I really understated the whole thing. Actually, sometimes men think they have to right to come up and touch me in a personal manner. This blurs the line of just DJing. They like the way you look and so therefore not only enquire as to your marital status but also impose themselves physically. I'm not an hostess looking for some after hours "trinkgeld". This is a fucking ridiculous state of affairs and women DJs either need to get rude or even violent or have to organise a bodyguard. Having to fight off drunk men so I can do my job just shouldn't be.
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